Today has been a tough one.
Yesterday my teenager and I had a doozie of a fight. It was a perfect storm of lack of sleep, hormones and stress that exploded all over mom. Yuck.
It threw me off my game so much I forgot to blog yesterday so here I am today.
This morning I was weepy. The mom kind of weepy. Am I doing a good job? What could I do differently? These darn hormones! Etc. What kind of cruel joke is it that mom and daughters sinc up in hormonal rhythm?!?!
When I walked out of the house this morning there was a beautiful doe at the bottom of my stairs looking up at me to say, "Be gentle with yourself, Breathe in peace, Breathe out love."
Yoga for sure helped.
The sunshine helped.
The trip to the Farmer's Market with a good friend helped too.
I had the day to regain my equilibrium before picking up the teens this afternoon.
Like a light switch that had been flipped a different kid got in the truck after school. My sweet daughter was back - the one that looked at me perplexed and said, "What's wrong?"
We've had a good evening with a yummy dinner, the first fire of the year in the fireplace, classical music playing while we all work on homework. Oh wait, I typed too soon. A small sibling dispute. Mom's tired. Time to shut the household down for a good night's sleep and a chance to do it all over again :)
I love my incredible full messy life - even these growth experiences that challenge me.
Today I am grateful for calming music, fires in the fireplace, the sound of the fall wind sweeping through the leaves, neighbors who lend forgotten ingredients and peace.