A personal blog about creating, playing and dancing with life!
Friday, August 30, 2013
So the thing I'm finding the most difficult about starting a blog and "practicing" it daily is it being good enough. Yesterday I did a very quick post in less than 15 minutes to go with the topic I chose. After I hit "publish" the doubts starting creeping in..."Was it good enough? Oh my, that was fluff! etc, etc" Then when I realized that blog would be the first one folks saw when they went to my blog vs. the previous two posts (which I spent more time on and reflected more on before I hit the publish button) I was really squirming. When I shared these feelings with a good friend of mine she gave the idea of "hiding" the blog if I wanted to so I still had written for the day but I didn't have to share. I thought about this. Was still thinking about it this morning and realized the core issue was one I have struggled with my whole life - being good enough. Perfectionism has a tendency to stop me from doing things I love - such as writing and sharing. The fear of not being "good enough" or perfect or etc, etc. I know I'm not perfect. You know I'm not perfect. So letting go of that illusion and the fear that you quit reading if I have an off day/crappy post is a must. There will be days (many I'm guessing) where 15 minutes is all I have to give to writing. (Especially while my amazing daughters are at home and I'm blessed to have the opportunity to juggle all the varied tasks that come with four busy talented people living their lives). So today I'm taking a deep breath (Inhales deeply) and declaring "it" GOOD ENOUGH.