Breathing through change. That has been my objective today. Yesterday at the impromptu interview I was offered the job on the spot and I accepted. It is a part time job that works great with my professional skill set and the licensing path that I have been wanting to complete. Of course, I look at my calendar and it is PACKED through Thanksgiving since I wasn't expecting a job this soon- how in the world is this going to work? I woke up way too early this morning fretting - have I done the right thing? Is it the right time? I decided to breath. Breath in - Breath out. I call support friends who say the words I need to hear, "You can do this!" The major stress right in this moment is all the paperwork that goes with starting a new job and the orientation materials. Making room in a full schedule for learning. My folks are on their way to my house for the first time in three years. Breath in. Breath out. I called in reinforcements to help with the pre-company cleaning - huge relief. Breathing better. I think one of my biggest fears is that I will lose my creativity time. I felt like I was just getting my groove. Of course when I was processing this today the thought popped into my brain - blogging has warmed me up for case notes :) I've definitely gotten in the habit of writing everyday so I can handle this :) I want to honor the creative in me. I know my "work" is important and I know my creativity and creative work is very important too. I'm lucky to be part of such a creative family so part of my creative work can be combined with family time too and our arts nights :) I have the full support of my family which is awesome. I can do this. Notice my mantra for the day :)
Breathing in Peace - breathing out love,
Christine
Oh Christine...I am glad you got the job and I know you will do well...you have a strong support group around you and the background you need...You can always get up an extra hour early to get some art in and remember...Breathe in...It will happen the way it is supposed to happen...Breathe out..
ReplyDeleteYou can do it! And when you do, tell us how!
ReplyDeleteI understand your concerns Christine. If I were to take on a part-time job right now, so much of what I am building creatively would change. I will eventually need to devote time to earning a living again--like you right now. And when I do, I am going to strive to maintain The Daily Creative Practice, even if it is only 15 minutes a day. We will be in touch! Meanwhile good luck!
ReplyDeleteThanks ladies! I am feeling much better today. I think my biggest concern is the "quiet" time that I need to let the poems, images and creative thoughts bubble to the surface. I had to laugh at Darlene's comment - no way am I getting up at 4am! I have been lingering in the bed till 5:30 most morning so I can pop out of bed at 5 and savor that 30 minutes of quiet and writing time right before or after yoga. I'm also turning off the radio after I drop kids off to give myself that time to think and "create" as I return from carpool - multitasking at its finest :) I think the main thing is to honor how important it is to my soul and put it right up there with great sleep, great healthy food and consistent exercise. The basics my self needs to thrive.
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